Branching out...

For me, things sometimes are really hard to accept in the manner of change. I really want to change, but I always morph back into my old habits and feel like a total failure. Do you do the same?
God spoke to me so much today at church during the service. I sat surrounded by friends, family members, and some total strangers and cried like a baby. I was convicted, and for all the right reasons. I felt an amazing amount of love and compassion in my heart. I looked around the room and saw the faces of believers in Christ who just need to show the world that, "We WON'T BE QUIET, We are fallig for YOU hard and we can't stop!"
My heart is swollen and broken today for the mission of Christ. Jeremy and I have been led to start a Bible Study group in our home and we ignored it forever. But, the amazing thing was that God was speaking to us both, individually, and we both were fighting it. If we chose to step forward with it, we would have to step out there and put ourselves on the line and be held accountable. Our faults and fears would be open for the world to view and that is a hard bite to chew sometimes. We would have to accept that people may or may not come. And we may have to face a burden that so many leaders in a church face- the fact that it feels impossible sometimes when all you want to do is share the amazing message of Christ with others. You want to shout if from the rooftops!